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some friends say to me, how funny this life can be…sometimes when we want something so much, we won’t get it.but when we never thought bout it, then those things will come to us..but, actualy we shouldn’t think that way,rite?..that is life..if it’s too easy for us to get what we want, then there will be no fun anymore.when life is so easy, there will be no challenge for us to gain new experiences and knowledge.life is full of obstacle and hurdles…that the beauty of life actually….friends..what is the use of brain if we don’t use it to overcome the problem?? drugs, crimes, alcohol won’t help us.those things do nothing to ease the stress we have in our head…what about those underground, thrash songs? from my OWN view, it’s not the best way to release the stress n problems we have. it’s my point of view.not that i want people out there to follow the way i’m thinking.just to give another prospective in our way of thinking. why i’m typing all these? because i’ve seen so many crimes, so many "keruntuhan akhlak" nowadays.why aren’t we use our brain instead of blaming others?blaming our parents for not nurturing us better,  the teachers for not teaching us better, for the people around us for not understanding us, the brothers n sisters for not being there for us??there is one quote i love to keep in my mind…

"there will be no one there to help you unless u help yourself first…"

and to people who love to help people, sometimes we have to think this way, to help someone who asking something to eat, do not give them fish but give them the fishing rod and teach him how to fish then, later on, he’ll know what he should do when he is hungry instead of giving him fish and he did nothing to gain it. he will remain asking for food…the rest of his life….

hari ni quite blur la aku..hmm, since last last day, aku start bengkel mastering cytogenetics in hukm..ad-hoc nye acara tahunan.hakhakhak..best jgak.lama dah tak tengok kromosom..but, quite boring sebab hampir sama dgan kursus yg hkl wat utk staff dierg.time aku menaip nih, sbenarnye tgah lapa..tu la segan nye pasal.kursus sediakan lunch aku tak pi makan.segan kunun…cess!ntah nape la hari ni nak menaip kat sini.bkan ade idea pong…chow la!

hahaha!no other reason why i’m this happy…just got my ID card n this shows that i’m officially accepted as one of HUKM staff.i’m so happy with this.thank god! this is what i’m hoping for in my life(setakat ni la…).being in OnG really make me realised how hard to be a mum. not all women are given a chance to be a mum.so sad for those yang susah nak dapat anak.takde salah sesape just they were ditakdirkan.they try very hard and yet still fail for some women.tak sangka ada yang sanggup habiskan byk duit.ada yang sanggup pergi overseas just to do some procedures to get a child.some of them were fully supported by a loyal hubby..hemm..susah nak dapat cam tu kan…neway, memacam plak aku ngarut nih.bukan aper just to share what i’m feeling rite now after weeks being here….to my frens in my previous workplace (HKL).i was so happy being your workmate but here is much more suits me.but, all of u are still my frens i treasure most..hey, bebile free we still can hang out rite!jgn wat tak kenal plak!!

huh, dah lama tak ngetuk keyboard nih.ari ni kak tun takde. die kuar.so, buleh le aku pinjam sat komp die.komp kat umah dah block frenster..ingat aku bawah umur ker…so, today is the 5th day aku kat hukm.memula macam nak nangis ader.ade ke aku kena  masuk team fetomaternal..ape lagi tetiap ari dok tengok perut boyot n tuttt..

tapi bila dah 5 hari kat sini rase best plak.n lagi satu diorg dah explain my main task is still in cytogenetic.lega…kat sini aku tak tau la if it’s better than HKL.still early to say that.yang aku tau.hkl n hukm both are good.specially in making frens.tak sangke aku ni pandai gak bawak diri.hakhakahak….

ooh, aku baru eringat hot issues in malaysia…sume org tgh bising mawi putus tunang.tapi kejap je sebab siti taknak kalah.die plak kuar ngan crite nak kawin ngan datuk K.kuss semangat dengar..tapi whatever la, selagi datuk K tak masuk jd family aku, aku tak kisah.yang penting family aku masih gumbira dan bahagiaaa…

hahaha..key, makin mengarut plak.ingat nak tido sat tapi dah menaip nih, sure tak leh tido.orait, nak get ready bfore masuk keje balik…

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hmm….aku tgah boring nih.nasib baik my sis dtg frm kuantan…so, today i cuti just to be a tourist guide! hakhak!no la…actually saje nak lepak…dah lama keje nih ada mase nak lepak2 gak rite? since aku dah nak menganggur tak lama lagik, so, aku kena biasakan diri kat umah on week days….pewh!

tadi baru jek pi cheras..my sis nak tgok bebudak praktikal kat situ…pastu pi cuci kete…malu giller…kete aku penuh kertas2 tol…hahaha!aku dah lama tak bersihkan kete..dok ujan jek..tapi bler dah bersih berkilat..tiba2 jek aku nampak langit mendung kelabu….aku pun turut sama mendung…………:(

alahhh..komp plak buat hal…ni ape yg bunyik beep bep nih…matila..anything happen to this laptop..ape nak jawab??????

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bestnyer lagu nih…memang kena sangat ngan akuh…*_*

emm..this new year is the best ever coz my fren asked me to join her for a boat trip.actually dier ada advanced course for scubadivers.so, aku pun oke jeler..aku bukan pandai sgt swimming but as she said that i can just snorkeling..so, aku pun pi je la..boat trip ni means that i have to stay on the boat for the whole trip.eii..poning jugak la…first day, aku memang jakun tapi bile malam jer, aku naik pening dah…seasick i guess.tapi org lain muntah aku tak..tu yg pning sampai pagi..pastu katil plak kat lower deck..bayang la dier punyer bouncing memang tak tahan..lepas 4jam gerak, hujan skali ngan big wave..hah!dalam hati tuhan je tau..aku baca apa yg terlintas.ye ler..as i said, jakunn..so, bler gegar sket jer aku dah teringat tsunami..heiii..pagi esoknyer, kitorg sampai kul 6.30pg kat pulau n di sambut oleh..ikan2 todak…bestnyer..aku dah tak sabar terjun dah…elok lepas bfast n sume org dah masuk air, aku pun muler kan projek..tapi sejam jela..pastu rase pening balik.so, aku naik boat.n layan vcd sampai malam…makan kat atas tuh punyer ler heaven…mcm2 ader..ala2 hotel 4star la die punyer foods. esoknyer bfore balik all the divers ada lagi 2 dive.so, aku pun ada 2 jugak tapi snorkeling la..haha..naik pun sebab ujan n lapar…then, dah settle sume, kul dua blas kitorg gerak balik…on d way back, kitorg layan karaoke sampai aku tertido atas couch…ptg kitorg makan steamboat, sashimi n nasi goreng sambil tengok ikan2 main atas air.sampai kul 8.30mlm kat jeti tanjung karang n trus blik umah.panat tapi berbaloi!!at least tak yah denagr mat rempit berempit depan umah akuh….ermm now i’m thinking bout goin to langkawi for shopping spree.tu pun klau dapat bonus this month..heheh( dah tumbuh tanduk nih!)

Alhamdulillah…at last i ‘ve successfully registered my own company..it is CBG  Resources.never thought this could be its name.i plan to name it with better ones.but, it’s ok, maybe there’s something good bout the name.so, today is one of my brighter days…hopefully it will run smoothly and i’m so eager to prepare my company profile and started to find customers so that 2006 will be the lucky year for me…insyaAllah…

him, the one i really miss…miss him a lot but, i know… that i would never have a chance to see him anymore..not here, not today, not tomorrow…i pray for him…for his peacefulness..hopefully we could one day meet again